What if?

Happiness is all we want yet we are afraid to be happy.

We do not want to lose what we have. What if we lose everything? Fear is everywhere eating our souls.

Darkness is swallowing the light.

Why not surrender to darkness and see what happens.

Why not willingly be helpless?

At times, surrendering require more strength than courage to oppose.

Why not leave and do nothing.

What if we lose everything? You fear loss? I say, what if you gain more?

I say, What if this darkness is the way to light? What if it everything get better?

I say,  What if all you find after this sorrow is happiness. Never ending happiness. Till the end and after the end.


What if…

Healthy Fear

Nowadays, I am feeling like I am ignoring my urge to scribble just anything. I took a long break and then I come back here, today. Yesterday, I was reading a book and the writer mentioned a very unique type of fear; the fear of a beloved to be angry with you. Fear is a feeling associated with ‘unseen’ events, of course, but really, I never thought about fear like that.
Phobias and fear are not healthy, over all, but I think this type of fear is healthy.
I am writing this today, when I know my blog has been buried under many posts on your WordPress Reader, but surprisingly, I am short on words today. This idea of healthy fear is so powerful that I am feeling like I am a new world looking inside my mind with a new perspective.
Think, differently; think about the one you love. On the scale of 1 to 10 what is the level of healthy fear you have. Do you think it is a good measure of your love? How strange it is. Love makes you fearless, apparently, but at the same time it plants a new type of fear in yourself. It seems like love and fear are the two sides of the same coin.
As a blogger I lack the ability to write a comments-inviting post, but I really want to know what other souls think about this fear-love phenomenon.

A note

I found this note somewhere. It is a whole story in itself.
Sometimes we just come across situations that are not planned. They are unfamiliar to the extend that the laws of the nature appear to be fading and losing their meanings. Billions of people have zillions of different life stories and each one of them is so complicated that they amaze the mind and seize the tongue.
It is amazing how people survive in the circumstances that are tough. How the external factors mold life is amazing and sometimes painful. No one tell us where to go when there is nowhere to go. When all else fail what can work?
The time when your own voice collides your brain and comes back, is one of the most painful times in life. When everyone has left you and you cannot even talk to yourself because you are too afraid to address the issue.
The time is shrinking its boundaries and I am losing my control over things. Am I am going to experience the “rare” again?
I am afraid of being afraid because life always wants me to be fearless and for this purpose it always make me face my fears.

Village News: So It Is What It Is!

So it is what it is! Losing a loving parent when the other is abusive brings a turmoil. You live everyday running from yourself and trying to escape reality. No help arrives. No healing magic occurs. You just do not want to think about healing and move on with life apparently. Then a day comes when all is shattered again. The string around your neck pulls you back and you cannot run now. This is the time when you need to shed tears. You feel helpless. This is the time when you meet yourself.
For me, this is the time… I am sitting here in this small room cluttered with everything that can be here. And this is the time. Tears are filling up in my eyes, making the screen look blurred. I am feeling like something is stuck in my throat. My eyes are burning. My breathe is… Well, when I woke up the dream somehow made its way to the reality. I met my beloved mother. I know she is free now and doing what a free soul would do after escaping the prison of life.
Dreams are metaphors, maybe. When they repeat your past, you experience everything again. That is why I am tired. My soul is falling down the spiral again and I am waiting for a light to shine so that I can find the way back up. It is the time when I wait for the shepherd. I know, he will arrive. When? I don’t know. But he arrives when I least expect him. Maybe, he is on his way.

I wish everyone who is going through bad times or some kind of stress disorders to be healed. May God heal us. Amen. I may not supposed to be posting a prayer that appears so simple, here. But I did this. I do not want anyone to feel what I am feeling right now. It is a reminder for those who see this post. Please, pray for all the struggling souls. That’s how you can contribute to bring the blessings to earth. Thank you.

The Two Best Ways Theory

Stress, worries and fears are inseparable part of life. I have practiced many methods to get rid of all such energy sucking emotions. Without going into the details of how’s and whats I am going to share with all the Struggling Souls, TBWs (Two Best Ways) to forget every negative feeling and go on with your life happily. I would be glad if someone share it. Although, this is my theory, but I would be glad to see it under someone else’s name. Just share it!. The whole point of my success lies in spreading this so the people who do not have discovered my blog yet benefit from this theory.
Here it goes;
Two Best Ways Theory (TBW Theory)
An average day of a person can be divided into 2 parts according to the level of physical and mental activity in order to gain material or spiritaual or emotional benefits.
i. Higher Level Activity Part
ii. Lower Level Activity Part

i. Higher Level Activity Part
The HLAP (Higher Level Activity Part) comprises of the time when a person is at work or with his/her family. During HLAP a person can deal with stress by concentrating all his physical and mental effort on present.
This concentration can be achieved by doing the work you love, practicing a hobby. avoiding stressful jobs that you dont like and surrounding yourself with positive people.

ii. Lower Level Activity Part
The LLAP (Lower Level Activity Part) is the part of a day when a person is not very active physically or mentally for example when he/she comes back from work or when it is bedtime. During LLAP a person can deal with stress by giving God whatever is causing the burden. Ask God to hold it untill you are ready to take it back.

A Victim’s Plan

Emotional abuse, verbal abuse and just what not? Ever encountered those toxic people? If not everyone, many of us have such people in their lives. I have written as a guide to those who have such toxics in their families.
Talking about the person who is under burden; the victim. What should a victim do? Plan? Isn’t it the only way out when it comes to abuse? I have seen people planning to save them from such toxics. Researching, talking, taking advices regarding their problem. But what I have understood; excessive planning itself is a symptom of being dangerously abused. We plan each and every step to make us secure. This make us sleepless, restless, and prone to catch allergies and many other physical and psychological diseases. So, what should be done?
There is only one piece of advice that fits in this situation.
Plan only once and stick with it.
No doubt, prevention is better than cure and these people are no less than a lethal disease, but there is no use of planning again and again, researching and talking about it each day. Thus, you would be living that abuse even when the abuser would be sleeping in his cozy bed.
So, make a plan and stick with it. Have a blessed life!

Anti-Fear Pills : Quotes Collection

I woke up afraid today. I needed to pray and ask for faith renewal. I prayed. Search for inspiration and I found these quotes. They worked as anti-fear pills for me. I thanked God for the renewal and sharing these pills with you all. My personal most favourite is;
“It never ceases to amaze me when God wants to take someone to the next level in their life and they let fear of the unknown rob them of tremendous blessings. I think there are two common problems with Christians- They are scared to death of being truly free and of God’s overwhelming love.”
― R. Alan Woods, The Journey Is the Destination: A Book of Quotes With Commentaries

Following is the collection.
1. What we seek we shall find; what we flee from flees from us.
– Ralph Waldo Emerson

2. Many of us crucify ourselves between two thieves – regret for the past and fear of the future.
– Fulton Ourslerv

3. FEAR is an acronym in the English language for “False Evidence Appearing Real.”
– Neale Donald Walsch

4. Fears are nothing more than a state of mind.
– Napoleon Hill

5. You block your dream when you allow your fear to grow bigger than your faith.
– Mary Manin Morrissey

6. Just as when we come into the world, when we die we are afraid of the unknown. But the fear is something from within us that has nothing to do with reality. Dying is like being born: just a change.
– Isabel Allende, The House of the Spirits

7. The unknown is not what to be afraid of, it’s only when the unknown becomes known that one can decide whether to be afraid or not.
– Markus Peterson

8. Fear and anxiety many times indicates that we are moving in a positive direction, out of the safe confines of our comfort zone, and in the direction of our true purpose.
– Charles F. Glassman, Brain Drain The Breakthrough That Will Change Your Life

9. The first and great commandment is: Don’t let them scare you.
– Elmer Davis

10. There are four ways you can handle fear. You can go over it, under it, or around it. But if you are ever to put fear behind you, you must walk straight through it. Once you put fear behind you. Leave it there.
– Donna Favors

11. To be a star, you must shine your own light, follow your path, and don’t worry about the darkness, for that is when the stars shine brightest.

12. You can conquer almost any fear if you will only make up your mind to do so. For remember, fear doesn’t exist anywhere except in the mind.
– Dale Carnegie

13. Feed your faith and your fears will starve to death.
– Author Unknown

14. I am kind of paranoid in reverse. I suspect people of plotting to make me happy.
– J.D. Salinger

15. Where ever fear shadows…. that always means there is a light shining somewhere.
– Jonathan Santos

16. The greatest mistake you can make in life is to be continually fearing you will make one.
– E Hubbard

17. A mind focused on doubt and fear cannot focus on the journey to victory.
– Mike Jones

Do you run the world business?

Yesterday, the shepherd and I talked for about an hour. Whenever he visits the lands near to my farm I always invite him to have tea and biscuits with me. He always share his food with me. And to be honest, his food is always so delicious that sometimes I doubt that he is a chef too.
He had left but his voice was still echoing in my head.
Do you run the world business?
I see above the clouds were floating in the sky and the sunshine was seemed to play hide and seek with the land. I was confused. My mind was daggling between the two extremes; faith and fear.
The sun, the clouds, the weather, the grass in pasture, my breathe, my heartbeat; all that was around me and within me, was not being run by me. How would I fed my cattle on my own? How would I made my respiratory system, my blood circulating system running without the One who was running it?
I, like my old shepherd friend, was feeling silly. I was afraid too. I was afraid of dark; The dark that always ate up all the green of my farm at night; the dark that always made me feel helpless and unable to see anyone who could harm my cattle when I was in my house. Why I was feeling silly? I was feeling silly because I came to understood something that I already knew.
Who took care of my cattle when I sat with the shepherd? Who used to took away the dark and brought the sun back to the sky in the morning? Who made me forget my bad days when I laugh at the jokes of my shepherd friend?
I knew the answer. I understood it, then. But why was the confusion there? Why was I finding myself swinging between fair and faith?
I thought. I thought for days, for nights. I thought it all the time until today. I know it now.
I need to fear because God does not want me to be careless. He does not want me to just sit back, relax and forget all my duties. My farm and cattle need me. God wants me to take care of them. God wants me to be dutiful.
I need to have faith because God does not want me to have fear to the point of anxiety or depression. He wants me to know that He is there with me all the time; be it a bright sunny day or one of the darkest nights.
I need to have enough fear to lock the door, and I need to have enough faith to sleep believing that no one will break that lock.
So, I should not swing in between the two extremes; I should just stay and relax in between faith and fear.

Village News- The Village Under Attack

battleThis morning is not like it is always in the village. The clouds of sand and dust all over are blocking the sunshine to touch the village. The noise of the enemy soldiers, sounds of horses gallops and elephants roars are tearing the eardrums. All the common villagers are hiding in their houses. Anything can happen today.
Village soldiers are ready. Ready to fight back in defense.
Mark takes out his sword from the scabbard.. He was not sure of victory, not afraid of defeat, but he was open to the battlefield.
Everyone says that he has a magical sword that just attack at the right time on the right target, but it is not true. He smiles when he listen such rumors. The magic is not in his sword. It is in his mind, his openness to the experiences of war and the gratitude through which he accepts the victory and defeat. His faith is his power, the magic of his sword.
The fight has began, lets see what it brings at the end of today.

Village News- A Very Bad Morning

Hypoc monster is again in the village. Birds, birds are gone dear! No one likes to face this monster. Not even Atish.So, on hearing the roar she springs out of the bed, makes breakfast and here is she on her laptop writing her masterpiece. No one knows what this masterpiece is all about! Well, she doesn’t even fully know it. It comes to her from outer space. maybe.

What other people are doing in the vilage? Nothing new. Nothing exciting. People are going to their work as usual. House wives are at their 24/7 jobs like everyday. Some unemployed have not still accept failure so they are out on the job hunt. Some are not going to find the job until they start seeing their failure as a defeat on single battle. They have to fight many of such battles in their lives. Silly people! But it takes time to learn this. Children are going to school. In short, what this Hypoc doing in their village they do not really care. And that is what the power of this monster is. Lack of knowledge about the monster and carelessness. He is eating up their souls. Enjoying the main course, Conscience with Lie-salt and Anger-peppper. Yum yum! With the side dish of stir fried Greed.

Atish… She is scared. Scared about the village and off course about her future. Time will decide. Here, no Shah is ever going to help her. She is the one who will have to take any step.